mga bata talaga...

i know that i don't write here a lot about guys... i don't know if u know already that i'm a single since birth girl... please don't ask why, i'm sick and tired of answering that queastion, and my answer varies from time to time... my latest answer to that question is: it must have been my destiny... and i told that to the 14 yr. old boy who juz asked me recently...

him: pwede ba magtanong ng medyo serious na question?
me: yeah... nakakatakot ah...
him: my boyfriend ka na ba?
me: wla.
him: ever since?
me:yup.
him: bkit?
me: it must have been my destiny to stay single up until now...
him: ako rin, wla pang nililigawan ever since...
me: magakaiba tayo, ako matanda na! ( i wanted to emphasize the word matanda na to him...)
him: oo alam ko yun, guy ako, girl ka
(akalain mo yun, he didn't take the hint...)
me: haha... yeah, and meron ding girl na pra sau...
him: malay mo ikaw un?
(give me a break!)
me: hahaha! i doubt!
him: bkit naman?
me: i'm too old 4 u! corrupting minors tawag dun, pwede akong makulong alam m b un? :)
him: age doesn't matter...
me: yeah... but maturity does...
him: matured naman ako e, kaya nga gusto ko ng masmatanda na, pra matured...
(for the second time, give me a break!)
me: hindi magkalevel maturity natin... kelangan ng time for maturity...
him: sige na nga... pro we're still friends ha...
(hay, salamat, tinigilan na rin ako...)
me: sure...

i know, i know, cno ba naman ako pra magexplain about maturity... i'm not that matured, haaay, mga bata talga... all of a sudden, i feel so old... aaawwww... my back's aching na, time for me to retire na...(retire, as in to rest... i'm not old, i'm juz turning 20!)

wei!

hey guys, prang ang tagl na ng last post ko dito... ano2 ba nangyari saken... hmmm...

nung saturday, nanood kami ng superman.... maganda naman... i love it... pro hnd nya ka-level ung mga all tym favorites ko... lyk spiderman, xmen, etc... pro still love it...

ay oo nga pla, before watching superman, i encountered a bitchy lady guard sa mango... ung guard dun sa dressing room nila... hindi ko na kkwento d2 kasi manggigigil na naman ako, sobrang nakakagalit sya!!! epal talga un! juz from recalling the incident, nararamdaman ko naman na sumasakit ung ulo ko sa sobrang inis... hindi nga ako nakatulog sa sobrang galit e... mga 2:30 p ako nakatulog... anyways, the important part is did not stoop down on her level... bad trip sya! aaaaaaaahhh! epal! grabe, wla akong maisip na pampacalma ng sarili ko... iniisip ko na nga lang na mas ok ng magalit kaysa makagalit e... pampalubag-loob n lng sa sarili ko.. pro sobra gus2 ko syang balikan! anyways, let's not waste tym and space for her... she's nothing, but a...!... ok, let's not go there... stop na!!!!...

ok, what's there to write pa ba, ah, discovered a buk kanina na sobrang nakakaaliw!!! it's about love and zodiac signs and all that stuff... sabi scorpios dw (my syn) deadly daw magalit... that explains why... pag nagalit daw scorpios, gustong gumanti, of course, sabi, not all... pro i think i'm one of those na gustong gumanti... i think huh... as u can see naman..

ano p b...ok, un lng nothing more happened... baibai!

hey ya'll!!!

spent another weekend with my high school friends... an afternoon until the next morning (4:00pm-6:00am) it was not what i had planned... hindi ko binalak na umuwi ng umaga... pro wla akong nagawa... makikisabay lang ako umuwi and ang kapal naman ng mukha ko diba, kung mag-aaya akong umuwi tapos ayaw pa nila. so i decided to call my dad, knowing na papayagan nya ko magpaumaga na. kasi wala syang magagawa, and i also know na hindi nya susunduin. syempre alam kong tulog na sya, and wla na syang strength na bumangon at sunduin pa ako... so ayon, i juz stayed there til it was 6 in the morning. haaay naku, bat ba ako ganito? i feel so helpless when it comes with my friends... kung tutuusin i can juz ride a cab pauwi. of course, wala naman akong courage to do that kasi takot akong umuwi mag-isa.
haaaay naku, the limitations when you're a girl like me... so sick with it... sometimes, wanna juz go and have some fun na walang iniisip... paano ako uuwi?... paano sila mama? what would they say?... paano bukas? ano gagawin ko bukas? may mga dapat ba akong gawin na hindi ko pa nagagawa?....aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!

sometimes, i tell to myself that i have to learn to let go... let go of the uncertainties of the future... kaya cguro ako hindi makatulog, pag umiinom ako... i don't know how to let go and be loose... i don't wanna do all those stupid things that people do when they're drunk... i don't wanna wake up next morning, wondering what happened last night... gusto ko lahat, alam ko, and hindi ko pagsisihan ang mga ginawa ko...these are all the things i hear inside my head, over and over again, wyl i'm drinking... sa tingin ko, tama naman lahat ng iniisip ko... pro i can't help feeling na it is not right... sa sobrang dami kong iniisip, i sometimes forget how to have fun.. ha! tamang tama nga cguro ang initials ko saken... K.J, KILL JOY! yup, i'm a K.J.

one time, somebody, gave me a complement... ang galing ko raw uminom... ang galing ko raw magdala, no matter how much bottles or glasses na ang naiinom ko... i'm still proper... naisip ko paano ako gagaling uminom, e hindi ko pa nararanasan kung paano malasing...

ang laki ng problema ko noh? bakit naman nagiging reflection paper etong post ko ngayon, dapat ikukwento ko senyo what happened at the night i was with my h.s. friends. haaay naku... hindi talga ako writer... wlang direction mga pinagsususulat ko dito... kung makikita 'to ng english prof ko dati, i know that she'll say: too wordy! i will fail you!